So it’s that time again. I am renewing my commitment to getting in shape. *sigh* I know. Again.

Here’s the thing: I have maintained a pretty steady body weight since a year ago when I did this. That’s a good thing, but not entirely honest. Early on when I first felt I was close to my goal I gained back like 8 pounds, then maintained from there. I really never got to where I wanted to be… (I wanted to see ABS) I have a few reasons for that. I think I was focused on having an amazing spring and summer. I did too! So many good times with my peeps!! So many brunches! So many nights at Urban Mo’s! So many cosmos! OMG SO MANY FRIED GREEN BEANS!! I also had stress at work… All the usual excuses.

Needless to say my continued efforts with cardio only kept me where I was. 8 pounds heavier than my initial weight loss. ‘Blah blah you look fine blah blah…’ It’s about goals people.

Goals.

(And writing it here on the net makes it real, thanks.)

So this is day three. Yay. Here I go again. I think this time less tuna fish. Two meals of tuna a day was yucky.

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daniel · the wee hours · say it · ping it

I’ve started this new and disturbing trend with my eating. Take a typical workday: I wake up and have coffee and perhaps cereal before work. Then after 2 hours I have a yogurt and a protein bar. Then 2 hours after that I eat part or all of my sandwich (turkey on Health-nut bread with low-fat Miracle Whip and Pepper Jack cheese) and some fat free cheese-its. I always have an extra yogurt and a no-added sugar Apple sauce cup, just in case I get hungry later. All fine and good. I may swap turkey for tuna salad, but it’s pretty basic.

Where I fail is when I get home. That’s when I get into the chips and salsa. Which is fine, we get pretty healthy chips. But chips lead to cheese. Dinner is normally healthy, but working retail it’s not everyday. So I can graze on chips and crackers and cheese twice a week if I’m not careful! So I am basically a Daytime Dieter. It’s been working ok so far… but to reach my goal of being BELOW 200 pounds I have to stop that. OR do cardio daily, which works for me *when I do it*. It’s just daily… That’s like Every Day. Gross.

Anyhoo. That’s on my mind tonight. Ugh.

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daniel · the wee hours · say it · ping it

Well, fitness wise. I was even at the gym today! That’s 4 times out of the 8 days. Hmm. Not quiiite enough. I am supposed to be 5 to six days a week. I am blaming the mini-staycation post holidays. I earned the break. But now it’s back to business.

I expect you people to help hold me to it!!

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daniel · evening · 1 comment · ping it

So okay hi. Yes I am *still* here. I know. Shut up! All 20 of you shush it! (Not that I’m bitter about losing readers… I just feel angry about it…)

So today was a big day. I cleaned my closet. (haha) And my dressers. Anything size 38 waist on up… gone. Anything size XL… gone. Anything I don’t wear… gone. Anything from prior employer… gone. Anything with cargo and/or tool pockets and straps… gone. Stained (why did I still have it?)... gone. Two hefty sized bags of clothes, shoes, belts, and flip-flops are going to be soon donated. Why? Well, a few reasons. 1) I now cannot afford to put weight back on. Literally. 2) What I have left are things I feel good in, things I haven’t been able to wear. 3) I needed the space.

I now have no clothes in the guest room. Haha!

It was also an emotional purge. I was held at gunpoint at my prior company. Ditching all the product was well over due. I don’t touch it or wear it. It had to go.

I am looking forward to a little bit of shopping. Something I rarely did the past few years because I wasn’t *quite* in control. I think I am now. It feels good. I feel good. And clothes are starting to look good on me again. Yay. I now take “shopping breaks” at work. It’s really fun… Cause stuff fits. EVEN MEDIUMS!!! But I am not quite ready for mediums yet around the love handle area. I will be soon tho!

In the meantime, today is a day off from the gym and I have had in addition to my usual food: 2 servings of Kettle Chips and 2 Vodka Crans and a piece of Pepper Jack cheese. I think I may need to purge… J/K I would never! Well, I have before but I totally won’t tonight… LOL

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daniel · mid-afternoon · 1 comment · ping it

I just got home from the gym. I know!! It’s been months since I have been up in there. I gotta say, it felt good. Now I just have to get back in the habit of going multiple times a week. That is the hardest part for me. It’s soo easy to put it off at first. But once I make it habit my OCD takes over and I will be compelled, just like old times. Just like so many other things in my life. Heh.

Wish me luck!

In other news, today begins a stint of 5 closing shifts in a row! Wee! I’ll be doing the time warp if anyone needs me…

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daniel · early afternoon · 1 comment · ping it

I was at the gym this morning workin’ on my fitness when I realized something. All the trainers there are guys. Cute guys actually. But that’s not what I realized, I knew that. The thing is, I never see them training people that need training. I also haven’t seen them with male clients. Or brunettes. Just really cute blondes. I don’t know if I am always there during the barbie girl training hour or what, but it never fails. Maybe there was a Hot Blonde Training Special?

I just thought it was weird.

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daniel · lunch time · 4 comments · ping it