I have been under more than a bit of stress lately. I am trying to deal with it, but it still is making me feel “off”.

You see, there are two new leaders at the workplace. In fact they are the 2 positions above me. So right there you can probably the issue. I feel like I am constantly on egg shells at work. I feel like I am constantly being questioned. I feel like I am under a microscope.

I am sure most of it is in my head.

I also feel annoyed and resentful of the change. Yet at the same time optimistic and excited.

I think I need a vacation

To top it off we have a major corporate visitation coming up. *cries*

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daniel · late morning · say it · ping it

I treated myself to a movie over the weekend. Twilight.

I know, I know… Whatevs. I read the entire series. I admit I *loved* the books. LOVED even. In all caps. Just like that. I expected to hate the movie. I figured it would be nothing like the book. I thought the characters would be all wrong. You know what? I loved it. Sure it was not nearly as amazing as the book. There were moments where I was like, ” This scene will never work”. Sometimes I was right (like the sparkly skin bit, but I thought that was dumb in the book too… I come from the Anne Rice people). Sometimes it was so dead on I got goosebumps. The 2 leads were the best cast, in my opinion. Edward especially. Robert Pattinson is soooo dreamy! Anyhoo, I loved the thing overall and could have sat and watched it again. It was late tho, so I had to go to bed.

Other than that it was a fun yet low-key weekend. A drink here, a brunch there, some good quality time with friends. Not the whole group, but still… Nice. Yanno?

work is crazy. The two top positions in the building were replaced. One had retired, one was promoted. The new leaders reported today. The rest of management (mostly me) was on edge all day. I hate change unless I create it, and even then it is a process. So I kinda feel all chaotic in my mental workspace right now. Plus the new “second in command” chews gum. I HATE *HATE* gum chewing. all the ‘smack, smack, smack, smack, *pop*, smack…’ makes me absolutely insane. I may have issue with that. Of course I will mention it, but Day One didn’t seem like the time.

So how are you?

tagged: work weekend twilight robert pattinson gum edward cullen

daniel · late afternoon · 1 comment · ping it

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daniel · late afternoon · say it · ping it

Okay, so like nobody said anything, so we must still be good on the NaBloPoMo thing… *looks around* Yup, coast is clear. We are a-okay! But I still hate DST. And not just because of my server time zone. For many, many reasons.

Anyhoo, I figured we should do one more post for good measure. *posts* No I kid. I am going to totally write something!

I am. Srsly. Dude.

So as I was saying. This time of year sucks at work. This year a bit more than usual. Trust. You don’t want a retail career when the economy tanks. But I find that with each bit of holiday decor that goes up at work I feel a bit more bitter, a bit more jaded. It used to be my favorite time of year, but now I just wish I could skip the next 60 or so days. And I realize that this is such an amazing time in our country, what with the elections and all. I should be writing passionately about the election or my feelings on the Prop 8 debacle. But to be honest, I am stuck in a state of self pity. Just like every holiday season. *sigh*

So there you have it. It’s “where I am at” as it were. I am trying to work thru it. Thank gawd for my new baby!

tagged: work versace politics depression hoiday election

daniel · late at night · 1 comment · ping it

So I forgot to blog anything yesterday. Dude. I suck. The thing is, I keep thinking I’ll do it when I get to work. The problem is that I just do not have the time. Not only have I been off for twelve days and am a bit underwater, but this time of year is generally crappy-busy like. Just a lot to do, even if business isn’t what we’d like it to be. Just no time to slack!

Anyhoo, so like bad me. I promise to be better.

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daniel · lunch time · say it · ping it

I just read a phrase that made me want to gouge out my own eyes and set myself on fire. A phrase that made my stomach turn. I can’t. Even. Think. About. It.

*shudder*

June 24th. It’s exactly halfway to Christmas Eve.

Noooooooooooooo! Stop. Stop it! Don’t SAY that! Dammit!

(Keep in mind people, I work in the retail industry.)

tagged: work holiday christmas omg

daniel · the wee hours · 6 comments · ping it