They say silence is golden. I agree.

However, the only way for me to get silence in my head is to complete tasks. That is one thing about my mild OCD that no one gets. Until I complete certain things I can’t really relax. Let’s say there is a list in my head of things to do each day. If I miss something it moves to the next days list. I can hear the list in my head all day. For example I know that on Thursdays I change the bed. I have to change the bed on Thursdays. That’s just how it is. If I can’t, for whatever reason, that task adds to another day’s list and that day’s list gets louder in my head because there is too much on it. Does that make any sense? It’s a bit more literal than the *actual* chatterings of my OCD brain as I see it, but pretty accurate as far as explanation. The only difference is a lot of what I feel compelled to do is autopilot. I automatically sweep kitty litter and vacuum the stairs everyday when I get home. I swiffer furniture on certain days, ect… I don’t have to normally tie it to a day. Whatever. The list scenario works. Now that you know I’m a nut-job, here’s the point…

It was expressed to me that the last time Richard’s mother visited she felt she couldn’t touch anything when I am around. I may be miss quoting or making stuff up (as I am oft accused) but that was my impression. So I have been making a CONSCIOUS effort to be less… cleaning up after anyone moves. It is making me crazy! My brain is SCREAMING at me every second I am home about STUFF I NEED TO DO!! I am miserable in my own house. I don’t want to look at it, sit in it, be in it UNTIL I FEEL CAUGHT UP!!

But I can’t get caught up without time alone. And yes I know in my head that Richard is doing his best to keep things as we like them. I do. And I appreciate it more than I have told him.

BUT HE FORGETS MY TOUCH OF THE CRAZY!

It’s only a week (and a day, grr!) We will all survive the Mother In Law visit. Hopefully our relationship will too. But I am taking some mental health hits over here… I need to wash the floor, wash every towel, vacuum all surfaces, and bleach things. Sorry.

tagged: ocd sick guests happiness time alone silence visitors

daniel · the wee hours · say it · ping it

Ladies, have I got a gem of a product to share with you!

This product is a household cleaner that I honestly was recently amazed by. You see, I have been struggling with my bath tub. It’s one of those modern fiberglass numbers with that textured non-slip bottom. You know the ones. So popular nowadays. You just don’t see a porcelain tub anymore. I tell ya they don’t make things like they used to. Anyhoo, so my tub. I scrub the sonofabitch once a week. I have used all the basics, Comet, Soft Scrub, the one with the animated bubbles.. Nothing would touch that non-slip bottom. It was dark and dingy looking. I hated it. It refused to scrub clean! My Richard even went so far as to tell me that I had “scrubbed the finish off”! The finish! Really? There is no finish on fiberglass. I would have scrubbed through the floor if that had happened.

So this past weekend out of sheer desperation I visited my local Lowes Home Improvement Store. I love the Lowes. I prefer it to Home Depot actually. It’s just more for a lady… I find Home Depot to be just too raw. Anyhoo, so I was in the Lowes staring at the wall of household cleansers wishing for a product that stated it was made for tub cleaning. I figured it was all this “multi-purpose” mumbo jumbo that was part of my issue. And lo and behold ladies, there it was:

Look at it! Commercial Strength! Basin, Tub, AND TILE!! The best part, ladies, was the price. This amazing product is just $2.85 down at your local Lowes Home Improvement. It works. Let me assure you, it really does just what it says! My tub looks amazing. I just knew it could come clean! Here’s an informative video review I found:

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tagged: ocd cleaning top job product review

daniel · late afternoon · 1 comment · ping it

I vacuumed the tree mess, ejected all holiday from the house, dusted, wiped, scrubbed, and polished. I vacuumed the entire house three times and swfffered the wood floor countless more times. This place should be *spotless*.

I am still finding glitter. @#%$!!! I hate, hate, HATE glitter!! I am spotting tiny damn sparkles as I walk around the house. I try to pick it up every time I spy a piece. It’s driving me mad. I hate the glitter ornaments! I always swear that I won’t use them but every year I put them on the tree… Not to mention the awful glitter holiday cards. I had to open my mother’s card over the trash can there was so much glitter! And hers wasn’t the only one… (no offense to glitter card-senders but really? so much glitter?) There was so much glitter in this house, and I cleaned all through the month…

The war is on. I will now have to vacuum and swiffer every day.

tagged: holiday ocd glitter mess cards vacuum sparkle clean-up

daniel · late afternoon · 3 comments · ping it

For as much housework as I accomplished today I think that is a personal best.

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daniel · lunch time · say it · ping it

Twitter is down people! Twitter is DOWN! Now what are we gonna do for 2 hours at midnight… Huh? WHATAREWEGONNADONOW??

Okay, nobody panic. It’ll be… Fine. It will be fine.

OMG! Twitter!!! *panics*

 

tagged: twitter tweets downtime blogging emergency panic twitter is down

daniel · the wee hours · 3 comments · ping it

I totally left work early today. No I didn’t sneak out, but I did leave early. A lot early. Normal people can enjoy doing that. Apparently I can’t. I knew I used to feel guilt if I left early, even if I was actually sick but I thought I might have changed. I haven’t. So when I got home and tried to take a nap (people are always talking about great naps) I of course couldn’t sleep. I have that guilty pit in my stomach. It’s really ridiculous. I should NOT feel bad. I never miss work! I have never called in sick! Ever! I am late probably more than I should be, but I stay late too… I could go on and on trying to justify this. I could. It’s the chatter in my head right now. I think I am going to let the logical side win and try to enjoy the afternoon. It’s a beautiful day. It’s so nice to be home. It’s so quiet right now. I love that, when the house is silent and the only noise is that of birds singing outside.

Now see what I did up there in that last paragraph? I went from raving-OCD-guilt-work issues right to a Mary Poppins-bird-singing thing. I love how crazy I am . Nutty as a loon, I tell you! [imagine cuckoo clock sounds now]

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daniel · early afternoon · say it · ping it