So it’s that time again. I am renewing my commitment to getting in shape. *sigh* I know. Again.

Here’s the thing: I have maintained a pretty steady body weight since a year ago when I did this. That’s a good thing, but not entirely honest. Early on when I first felt I was close to my goal I gained back like 8 pounds, then maintained from there. I really never got to where I wanted to be… (I wanted to see ABS) I have a few reasons for that. I think I was focused on having an amazing spring and summer. I did too! So many good times with my peeps!! So many brunches! So many nights at Urban Mo’s! So many cosmos! OMG SO MANY FRIED GREEN BEANS!! I also had stress at work… All the usual excuses.

Needless to say my continued efforts with cardio only kept me where I was. 8 pounds heavier than my initial weight loss. ‘Blah blah you look fine blah blah…’ It’s about goals people.

Goals.

(And writing it here on the net makes it real, thanks.)

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So okay hi. Yes I am *still* here. I know. Shut up! All 20 of you shush it! (Not that I’m bitter about losing readers… I just feel angry about it…)

So today was a big day. I cleaned my closet. (haha) And my dressers. Anything size 38 waist on up… gone. Anything size XL… gone. Anything I don’t wear… gone. Anything from prior employer… gone. Anything with cargo and/or tool pockets and straps… gone. Stained (why did I still have it?)... gone. Two hefty sized bags of clothes, shoes, belts, and flip-flops are going to be soon donated. Why? Well, a few reasons. 1) I now cannot afford to put weight back on. Literally. 2) What I have left are things I feel good in, things I haven’t been able to wear. 3) I needed the space.

I now have no clothes in the guest room. Haha!

It was also an emotional purge. I was held at gunpoint at my prior company. Ditching all the product was well over due. I don’t touch it or wear it. It had to go.

I am looking forward to a little bit of shopping. Something I rarely did the past few years because I wasn’t *quite* in control. I think I am now. It feels good. I feel good. And clothes are starting to look good on me again. Yay. I now take “shopping breaks” at work. It’s really fun… Cause stuff fits. EVEN MEDIUMS!!! But I am not quite ready for mediums yet around the love handle area. I will be soon tho!

In the meantime, today is a day off from the gym and I have had in addition to my usual food: 2 servings of Kettle Chips and 2 Vodka Crans and a piece of Pepper Jack cheese. I think I may need to purge… J/K I would never! Well, I have before but I totally won’t tonight… LOL

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