Yup. I hate my NoH8 photo. Actually, hate is not strong enough. I despise it. In the words of Heather Mooney “It exacerbates the genetic betrayal that is my legacy.” If Richard hadn’t been home when I saw it I may have cried…

In other words, I look like a terrified, bald cow. I should have known that Extreme White Light and Very Bright Flashes would be a bad look for me. I should have. I also should have realized how intimidated I’d be when the man pointed the Giant Camera at me. Every insecurity I’ve ever had crept forward. When I look at my NoH8 photo I can see fear in my eyes.

Dudes. I even tried shrinking it so no one could click to full size off Twitter. Still bad. Then I *photoshopped myself*. And shrunk it again. I still hated it. And worse, now therapists can smell me from miles away. Photoshopping myself. Idiot!

Anyhoo, it was a fun *experience* overall and the money I paid is for a good cause. The only downside is that I have no control over the image and it will be on the net for eternity. Gross. But you will never see it here. Or Twitter. Or Facebook.

Is vanity a sin?

tagged: vanity noh8 bald disappointed insecure photo fail

Yo. Dude. It has been raining up in this town. We here in San Diego are NOT made for rain. Actually we are not ready for anything other than 85 degrees and sunshine. So this rain, thunder, and junk has been CRAZY. Look, we were “rained in”! LOL. Whatevs. So this past Wednesday was a big day in spite of the weather. The big NOH8 Campaign was in town. You know, big photographer, celebs, professional photo, duct tape mouth?  YES. So of course with this going on, Richard and I were in. So we planned ahead, got out of work early and braved the weather. WE got to the very HIDDEN location in the gayborhood early enough that there was no wait. The photographer, Adam Bouska clearly adored my Richard. It was like an *eternity* till my turn. And I’ll admit, the white shirt, white backdrop, and tape scared me. I have lighting issues due to my hairline receding and all. And to put tape over my beard (the most loved change I’ve made) left me feeling insecure. So my actual photo may SUCK. I am glad I did it tho. The experience of being Professionally Photographed was amazing. Amazing. The camera, the direction, the flash. Awesome. Plus the cause and all. I hope my photo is awesome, yet I fear… anyhooo here I am just after at Urban Mo’s wondering if I need to build an ark to survive the floods..

tagged: richard photo crazy weather gayborhood scared rain flash noh8 bouska