“Will it ever come? And if it does come, will I still be human?”

Tomorrow is the big day. The trial regarding my issue last year. I was gonna link back, but it’s a lot of member’s only stuff so why bother? I was a victim. I am going to court. Finally. After a lot of drama and false alarms.. ‘Nuff said.

What does one wear to testify anyway? I mean, I want to look successful, as I will run into people I used to work with (dreading that). I also want to feel confidant on the stand. Supposedly this is ‘the big one’ with a jury and everything. I feel so Serial Mom. I should flash my crotch! Kidding. I kid. But really, I am thinking black pinstripe pants with a black shirt. All black. I love that look. No tie though. That way I am also comfortable. It’ll be hot in there, or at least I will be. I am sure that it’ll be worse than the preliminary bit I had to testify at last year, and I sweated like a whore in church for that one! I think it has to do with the fact that all the ‘defendant’s’ friends and family sat all over the courtroom. I had no safe place to look, you know. I hope that isn’t allowed at the real trial, that type of seating. It was really hard to not just shut my eyes the last time. Also the last time we were forced to wait in the same area as the family of the defendant. Talk about intimidating! They referred to us as ‘the fucking tattle tales’ on their cell phone calls to god knows who as we were waiting in the hallway outside the courtroom. I do not need that again. I really do not need that again. I will say something this time. I will. I feel more powerful now. 

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