Well I’m done with that for now. I sucked at court.

We get there at 8 AM, they check us in, give us each a copy of what we originally told the cops that night to refresh our memory, and then we waited. For an already tense group the waiting was the worst part. When we finally got to go down to the courtroom we waited outside for a bit before they took us in one at a time. It was outside the courtroom waiting when this kid came out and sat near me on the bench. He was from the defendant’s side. He was talking on his cell phone about ‘these snitches’ and how many of us there were to testify. Umm. Scary. When it was my turn to go in I was shocked to see a regular courtroom with the defendant and his lawyer and people sitting at the back. I had to get sworn in, go sit up in the little booth by the judge, and talk into a microphone! I went blank. The stress of it all and the way they were asking questions made me go totally blank. I was fidgeting under the table with a piece of paper, I was sweating, my voice echoed in my head, and the defendant’s family and posse or whatever just stared at me. The lawyers had to keep telling me to answer yes or no. I just kept saying umm hmm as a response.

It was horrible. What’s worse, is that was just the start. We could be called back again and again for as long as this continues. I think I blew it though. I was so confused/stressed or just insane that I was even contradicting my own statement from that night. Wouldn’t it be awful if he got off because of me?

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